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Feb. 27th, 2006 @ 01:22 pm cursed by the stellar winds
I really think i may have lost my mind completely. but i probably shouldnt trust myself on that. for those i havent said it to lately fuck you!! (you know who you are)
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Feb. 15th, 2006 @ 05:16 pm wrath of the tyrant. (the aire'n of greivences vol XXVVXVXV)
fuck all of this mindless retorhic (college is becoming a huge waste of time at least the finacial side of it), pervert kurt (sweatpants and all) is sitting right across from me in the computer lab and i think i might just spend the night in jail if he approches me (well well worth it). valentines day i think i learned what it feels like to be an arabic country as many bombshells that were droped on me. overall things turned out ok once the jagermister and a horrific realization came over me as i watched the sun come up in the parking lot. oh yeah to everyone i didnt get to happy valentines day. especially you manda, thanks for the text.
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Jan. 25th, 2006 @ 05:14 pm pain of salvation
life is much less about things turning out the way you want them to
and much more things turning out the way there were going to anyways.
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Aug. 24th, 2005 @ 07:23 pm (no subject)
third day in a row without sleep, i believe that that officially there is a hole in my stomach that nothing can fill. last night was alot of fun though, I am really proud of lauren.
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Aug. 24th, 2005 @ 07:23 pm skyfire
this is going to be long so you might want to get a snack.
so lets just start with a year ago, so I believe that i have my entire life figured out, im going to webster to get a film degree, cassie is going to umsl for journalism and when i when i somehow figured out how to make a ton of money we were going to get married and things were going to be a-ok, well then all of the horrible things i had done to her came back to bite me in the ass and I really took a huge hit to my ego and my self worth plumeted, I slumed around webster feeling sorry for myself for so long i couldnt beileve it. then all of a sudden i just forgot about all of my pain and just went with it, began to cherish my relationship with lauren and with sean, my new job and mix of new and old friends.
well after a couple months in the spring of meaningless sex, worthless relationships and several times finding myself searching for something i didnt need. i came to another cross-roads in my life, then i met langen and she changed my life so quick and everything felt so incredible that neither of us could believe it we rushed into things so fast and threw all care to the wind, that came and bit us both in the ass, but ill get back to that in a moment, so i have been lurking around eureka lately in hopes of running into cassie. yes i know what you are all thinking ian is really pathetic, but you know what there has just been this general curiousity to find out how things have been. so i took a look at her deadjournal, yes the oppisite of livejournal, shes used it for years. and to my suprise there was the same girl i fell so crazy in love with, she had found her place in life and shes doing everything she set out to do and she is much happier than i could have ever made her. and i felt really incredible seing that as well as it has really made me think about what i am doing with my life and what i want for my future. i really fucking admire and respect cassie. ok back to what i was saying earlier, langen and I, relationships do bring out the worst in people when you beileve that you are in jeparody. and you know what I fucked up langen and I's relationship and I am never going to forgive myself for what I have done. all day today i have been runnning every aspect of my new life and, langen is too important to me to leave behind I dont know exactly what this entails for what i am getting at but its never too late to change, truly change. that is what i must do. and i am fucking ready anything it takes to make my future what I want it to be. i told you it was going to be long.
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Aug. 23rd, 2005 @ 02:46 pm love, care, sensitivity, genocide, Mant, the whole nine yards.
am i depressed because I am at webster or am i at webster because i am depressed.

halfway through my first day and i have one class on the nature of romance and love, to which i am one of 2 males in the class the other being a 40 something black man with a studder. he is a nice man from what i gather its just very strange way to start my day. ethics is boring as all hell.
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Aug. 22nd, 2005 @ 03:09 pm (no subject)

for all those with the stomach, the legendary cannibal holocaust is showing at the tivoli next month, this film is dispicable but not without a very human message  a gruleling-life changing experience, if one film could turn you into a vegetarian its this one.

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Aug. 22nd, 2005 @ 02:59 pm ghost of perdition
humans have transgressed one of the most sacred rules of existance do not wake a jaques when they are in the arms of mother sleep, apologising for what was said is like a black mamba apologising for biting someone its just what happends. nature is screwy like that.
also I hope today is a clue as to what is to come this season, met with brandi and rob and lori then say just about everybody I didnt want to see this semester and gave them a chery " oh yes, i still go here smile"
then i got my job at religuios studies back and then walked down to eucled records and got the new opeth album a month early for 6 bucks take that.
good times.
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Aug. 18th, 2005 @ 04:32 pm tower of flesh.
im sitting up at school at 4:30 waiting for my date at 7:30.
jesus bought my lunch yesterday, thank satan for that
went to the ball game with adam and ashley and watched them get drunk in the parking lot then hit each other in the balls untill the 8th inning, when a little kid played with us the rest of the time asking about adams tatoos,
oh yeah and i lost 16 lbs in one day. through the power of the stomach flu diet, eat nothing then vomit out all of your blood. get dizy then fall down and sleep for 11 hours. wake up next morning fine.
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Aug. 13th, 2005 @ 12:33 pm (no subject)

der geisterstadt der mant, (or in english the hauntedcity of mant)

The eyes show me pictures like ghostly television screens
All her thrashing final struggles and her ravaged corpse
Serene the tunnel is closing behind me
Pressing me further and further down
I'm being swallowed by her earth and consumed by her ground
The end is moving into sight
I gasp and I scream as I see her lovely mouth five times the size of me
Her lips curl into a grin around her crooked gnashing teeth
I'm pulverized and devoured in the jaws of a girl seventeen

 

in other news, big new season of my show begins in 10.

stay tuned for further instructions,

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Aug. 10th, 2005 @ 11:41 pm mant-o-war
thanks scott, we attack at dawn...
no remorse and no regrets.

i found my notebook from like 2 years ago the one i wrote down every single note for any crazy thing i ever had an idea about
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Aug. 4th, 2005 @ 04:44 pm Mant liner notes
MAnt 4 track sampler available to those inquiring parties.


MAnt music is concived and executed by
Rob jones
Ian McDonald
pat leavy
special purification rites and post mortem examinations preformed by rob jones for e.A.D studios and Infinity against One productions.

for live exorcisims or funerary arangments contact Ian Mcdonald @ heckubus99@yahoo.com.
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Aug. 1st, 2005 @ 10:23 pm the rise the voyage and the fall, tangled womb of mortal soil.
every town has its great secret...some are worst than others.
i just came in controled contact with something i have feared for so long but also really gave me a feeling that i havent felt in a long time and it didnt upset me the way i feared. mabye something about the picture, A time even before me. there is no ego i changed this person forever. (in my opiniion i preserved her for a year and some change from. becoming what she is today. i guess it was destiny.

nothing but the process is infinite, endless, limitless, indefinite...
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Jul. 28th, 2005 @ 02:00 pm those are all lazer guided, and i get crazy if you touch them.
hurled at predators that were awoken, it wasnt a holly jolly christmas that year, for many were killed. yet again where would i be without the italians. i mean really, super mario; they make the best horror movies, the most epic powermetal (go rhapsody) and the most hilarious and cinematic pornography i have ever seen, thank you joe d'amato (articited massessie) yes the cinematographer for what have you done to solange? for the 'sexual challenge of hurcules....incredible.
so i know this is kinda embarassing but I have never seen cannibal holocaust in its full on glory and i hope tonight that my special lady feels up to the challenge.
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Jul. 18th, 2005 @ 12:41 am pure fucking tech-chario, revenge of MAnt documentry
so in the wake of a tell-all book about the exploits of MAnt writen by a collective think tank of spiteful ex-girl-friends, former band mates, as well as several disgruntaled local acts that we totally smoked live.

as part of damage control i have decided that its is time for a tell all 14mm film strip about the recording of our album as well as music videos, for Mant the channel 98 band, 70's supergroup DRAcula, and blip-core pioneers the narcetecks. derek and the manginas will saddly be left off of the documentry as well as the epic story of MAnts genesis.

basically the tell all book set to a ken burns type documentry with the actual comentators from the "ken burns presents the civil war" 17 hours i will always charish.

please stand by for pure fucking tech-chario.
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Jul. 13th, 2005 @ 01:03 pm bodom beach terror
i want to describe my rip-roaring sonic-(of the hedgehog variety) torrent life of fast women, fast music, fast cars, destruction, gore, and excitement. but well none of that has really happend, I mean i did get lots of blood and pus splattered at on me at the endo-dontist, i have been really responsible this summer and its gay.
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Jul. 12th, 2005 @ 01:42 pm perverse stigmata.
so if i ever doubted pat-and I's deep understanding of each other, i take today as an example of that misconception.

last night i had one of those, triumphant, the future is going to be ok moments, in my car listening to arch enemy. which in my case always is met with me breaking fort from whatever funk i have caught me self in.
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Jul. 3rd, 2005 @ 08:40 pm (no subject)
we are the black hearts of angels fallen from grace
take from this poisoned chalis
from now on all atrocites are to be taken out it the name of MANT....
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Jun. 29th, 2005 @ 01:02 pm bridge of destiny.
im not too sure that people shouldnt worry about rob and I's mental condition.
writing, recording, swimming, langen,working,

rob...are you there
i have an entire bottle of vodka that langen so graciously left in my car. as well as some doritos that i soon finished off,
and well, the mant insanity needs to flow like a constant river of blood from a clean head shot.
we need to contact the bass-master general and retrive the bass of the covenant.
and talk about titles.
in the pool.

in other news langen met my friends and like I thought, she fit in just fine and i have a feeling that they liked her. it made me really happy
also... last night, i said something i havent said to someone in this context in a long long time and never had i ment it the way i said it. and well, i have no fear.
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Jun. 28th, 2005 @ 03:03 pm insania 13 50
i really hate to lose control,

every moment i spend with langen my world gets smaller and smaller, it is truly shocking how many people we have in common and how stories of Mant, aka me, rob and pat respectivaly travel. and just other insane co-incidences.

we all live in crazy future world,
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